happy birthday, june babies!

This year June was quite happening because Ive got to celebrate 3 birthday's.

(This was really a late post ~ due to a very bussy June)

Let's us start with my most favourite person ever (No achik, it's not you :p)

9th June
It was never really a secret, anymore, now u're aging faster than I am. hihi. I knew this age is like your turning point in your life. A change from a boy to a man. This is what u've been waiting for, and so many things u've accomplish in a very short notice. I wish you happiness and I'll always support in anything that u do.  All the best in whatever you do and yes, there's more to come for you and for me. We'll just have to wait. :) :* :D

14th June
Do I really need to say anything? Do I? HAHAHAHA. Firstly, thank you for being a very wonderful sissssssssta ever. It's every little sister dream to have a sister like you (bleeergh). But nevertheless, you'll kinda always there for me, other than bullying me what not. I pray that you'll going to find the happiness you seek and be happy always and oh ya, thanks for supporting me. Hihihhiihhi. Love you always. Muah muah muah. :D

18th June
Yesza, the newlyweds. For you, I wish you all the happiness that u've been seeking throughout your life. I'm glad that you're married now, and yes im not pressuring you but it's nice to have a niece :D anyway, it's all in God's doing. Anyway, have a happy married life with the one you love and always stay healthy. We're still sisters although we're not under the same roof anymore. We all still love you no matter how far you go :) hugsssss!

All these 3 birthday's have their own story to tell. But that will not be something that I would share because it is something private and intimate. :)

H.

Song : Michael Buble - Some Kind of Wonderful :)

kucing dan aku : Part 2

If you a really a stalker of my blog, you must knew that Ive written this post about a cat and me. There's a continuation of it. Let me tell you what it is. Kucing dan Aku

The name is Chiko and the sad thing is, Chiko isn't alive anymore.

It happened one fine day. The owner, was taking a shower and she let him go for the sake of freedom and she couldn't let her go in the house because both me and my roomate have issue with cats. (Read the post and u'll know how big the issue is).

Anyway, that night, I came home from a very fine dinner when suddenly, she was infront of the door, crying. She said, she heard Chiko was crying. (Don't ask me how).

A few minutes later, (after ive changed my clothes and everything), I hear some chaos inside the house. Just to know that, Chiko has fallen from the sixth floor to the ground floor, and thank God, Chiko is not dead yet. But, to see him shaking and a bit of fear in Chiko's eyes. Chiko's legs was broken and Chiko couldnt stand and Chiko did not meow-ing or anything. Just fear.

Chiko did not become itself for next few weeks, until the day we've completed our 2nd last paper and the owner said to me, "After we've completed this exam, im gonna bring Chiko to the vet. Chiko's not eating anymore", she said to me right before we entered the hall.

But, something else happened.

I was out with another friend of mine, and was on the way to faculty and got a phone call from Chiko's owner.

She was crying histerically, and said, "H, Chiko is dead. Chiko is dead", she repeated again and again. I was devastated and I was bit torn. I asked her, "Is anyone in the house?". She answered, "No, I'm alone. Chiko is dead". She was crying but I couldnt do anything. Feels as though I want to cry too.

Later that day, when Ive arrived at home, she said, she's already burried Chiko at her favourite place. She was crying the whole day.

I was speechless and couldn't say anything. Only to pray that Chiko is safe.

H.

Song : Sarah Mclachan - I Will Remember You

Is it too late to thank June?

June is definitely a month of banyak rezeki.


3 cool birthday ever celebrated, too much of food, too much of happiness.


I'm hoping next June will definitely bring more joyful events to me. :)


Song : Jesse Mccartney - Because You Live

australia's masterchef gay second crush

Hayden hayden hayden!


Seriously, guys with blonde curly hair never ever have been on top on my gay crush before. But this hayden guy is really an exception. Maybe his like the male bimbo. More or less, he looked like Barbie's guy, Ken. :)

courtesy of Tumblr

He's a professional lifeguard, 24 and bimbo! Wayyyy to go!

Should see him shirtless! Spicy! But, he's Australian, a girl can dream.

Regardless of his bimbo-ness, he managed to be the only contestant to always lose in the team challenge and earn 1 immunity badge and 2 celebrity challenge. He surprises a lot of people.

After Alex, Im supporting Hayden. :)

Song : Jesse Mccartney - How Do You Sleep

alone but never lonely

Yes, I admit, I can be a bit the soapy person sometimes, but it's just something on my mind.


It's fun when you can hangout, have fun, laughing all day long - with your friends.


Yes, it is fun. I'm a human, of course I can feel the jealousy hole inside of me, but tu bukan rezeki saya. Yes, some other human, did said that i'm a loner. So, is there any problem about loner? Dorang bukan manusia ke? But entahlah, takkan sampai loner pun kau nak gtau semua orang. Apa kejadah ntah. (Post ini bukan nak cari pasal pun, nak cerita pasal benda lain, if terasa, sorry sangat2, never intended to hurt anyone pun).


But i'm not that type of person - the happy go lucky 24/7  but i can be that kind of person that might bores some people.


If only I have money, so that I can join everyone the activities that they do without thinking if the money is sufficient for the next meal, or photostat or paying anything.


If only I have a car, so that I can have friends and hangout and be appreciate rather than menyusahkan orang yang berkereta.


If only I can fulfill all the promise I did with anyone if only I can.


If only I don't have to work to buy my own stuff and things without depending on anyone.


If only I was smart enough to gain trust and respect or feel appreciated.


But like I said, it is all, IF ONLY.


I can only turn to Allah S.W.T. and take this test with open hands, sometimes, there are good things waiting for me. Is not that I don't want to have friends, but I cannot afford it. Hope some people will understand what i'm going through. If only I could.


Song : Dave Koz - Together Again


Sometimes 

weird and creepy dream

After so long writing in english and yes, I know, I need to brush up my english which to some people, menyakitkan mata and bolehlah nak kasi gelak2 pecah perut nangis. tidak mengapa. for this post onwards, i try to write in malay. KENAPA? sebab dia mengarut. 


let me start.


As semua orang tau, Ive started working dekat one of the telecommunication company in Malaysia. and may I say, it's 100% Malaysia product. But no, that's not the story. It's so tiring and setiap kali balik, confirm lunyai bagai. So, one day, I decided to have an early sleep.

A very deep sleep i might add

and no, its not pornographic dream. pfft.

Berbalik kepada cerita itu, if you knew me, like too well, I have a very tak masuk akal punya mimpi. It all started..

My bestfriend, K, ada swimming tournament dekat Pusat Akuatik mana ntah, so, I was there, to support her. Tapi masa tu dah habis, and I told her, ternampak ada kawanm so I nak pegi tegurlah kan. So, on the way ke dia, tiba2 tempat pusat akuatik tu, jadi belakang tempat terbiar camne tah, and tengah nak hi hi bye bye, boleh pulak ada adegan tembak menembak. Uish, apa lagi, aku pun larilah belakang tong sampah yang besar warna hijau supaya nak mengelak.

Pastu, my friend tu kena tembak, so, tibe2 dah scene hospital. This is the weird part starts;

tibe2, this guy (which tak nampak muka sape) confess that dia ada hati with me. (okay, no no, dengar dulu), pastu i was shocked. i asked him, if kita teruskan relationship ni, how do we contact each other? and he answered,


"SMS lah, dorang sure bagi I bawak hp"


Creepy much? (again, nope that's not the best part)


and we was sms-ing all the way until the result dia mati ke tak. and when the result kuar, he said,


"Oh I tak jadi mati, so we're on la kan?"


I woke up, laughing and feeling dizzy with the whole dream. But, the 1st thing I think other than my bf, is camne dia nak contact me if dia abeh credit when he's down there? (i meant the guy in my dream).


HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH. thats all I can say.


Song : Robin Thicke - Everything That I can't have

the quantity doesn't count, the quality are matters.

Setiap kali nak menulis sesuatu, I would pause and stare blank at my laptop trying really hard what to write. It's not like I have the best blog in the world or I have this a lot of readers that i need to entertain. probably stalkers kot. I don't mind if I have stalker, good or bad, they're still human.

It's human nature to be so judgmental. Sometimes we judge someone we barely knew or probably we've known for quite some time. Why is that so? In Muslim community, we believe that every single negatively is an influence from "Syaitan". 

Every human are born positive and clean.

Their surroundings, family, tradition and any other factors that can influence a human. But, we absolutely cannot run away from being judgmental to other human being, included me. I repeat, it's not good to be so judgmental. Because we don't know their story and why they turned out to be that way. Sometimes, they don't ask to be the way they are, but because of the factors Ive mentioned before, probably they trying to protect themselves, who knows?

But there are the bad side if we look them with a positive side. They tend to take it for granted and twist it into a negative thing. Probably trying to bring you down. But it's okay, don't blame anyone for any of their action. It's a part of life, some may dissapoint you and some may always be there for you.

But, the one thing that matter; don't ever ever lose yourself and be someone you're not

It's okay to be the black sheep or having this people let you down, at least people notice you. Instead of being this invisible person waiting to be notice. We don't really know they reason why it turned out that way, you can always turn to God and pray that you're strong enough to live for the future. 

Some good things will come your way, if you just wait.

Let them talk, just held your head high and smile. Be confident. and most importantly, Smile.

and yes, be proud with yourself. 

and to never ever never let yourself down. NEVER.

If you can be your own bestfriend, and learn to love yourself, surely someone will notice it, someday. Insya-Allah. :)

Song : Avant - Had Enough

must see proposal.

To me, the girls is very lucky. Because why? The love of her life, propose and did something unthinkable yet achievable. 

She must be one hell of a women. And I must say, she is so pretty eventhough she was crying, happily.

Song : Colbie Callait - I do.

australia's masterchef marathon

As now, Ive watched the Australian MasterChef Season 3 approximately 15 episode.


Because why? Because of this particular person.

courtesy of : MasterChef website

His name is Alex Glasson. 

Can I say, I have this gay crush on him? Oh la-la. No, his cooking to me, unique and different. But it's not that, his enthusiasm really blew me away. Through achieving the top 24 spot, he's been in the elimination for 3 times (and there are 3 times elimination), and it was a bummer when knowing he's not chosen for the top 24. 

But fate indeed does him justice.

One of the contestant, pull out and he was given a second to continue on in the Australian MasterChef. Eventhough he was the second contestant eliminated, he was smiling throughout the episode and yes, judges definitely like him. like a lot.

The most important why I have this crush on him, it's because of his passion towards food. I was so inspired by his effort to pull it together and smile. I think every human needs a big dose of Alex Glasson. He was indeed a very positive man. in a reality show of course. :)

I hope to see this young machinist become this top chef, someday. He'll be a great chef because of his positiveness. He can pull it through except he must brush up his time management and try to work under pressure. Im no jugde, but it's something obvious.

Enough about him. All the best to him. :)

p/s: Because of him, Im inspired to cook. Like serious cook. :)  or it's just another dream. who knows?

Song  : Avant - Everything About You.

new job

A little update after so many months since the last post.


Maaaalas sebenarnya nak update, yelah having this new job meaning, having a life; the reality one.


Anyway, working in a telecommunication company is somehow a new experience, different area from what I'm studying now. It may seem easy, but it's tiring. I don't even have time for myself.  I feel....old.

Random sangat, Finance to Admin.

Telecommunication company is the only company that you can hear all sort of sounds. Sound of blackberry's massager, what'sapp; you named it.It's there. and the best part it, if sakit perut but nak berbb dalam toilet, oh dia sangatlah tidak asing lagi. It's normal. So, nak bertwitter dalam toilet, dipersilakan. Hihi.

Pastu, I have to shipped all sort of $_$ item. Seronoklah, walaupun hanya dapat check and pegang. At least, bila orang cakap, "Weyh ko tengok Samsung Galaxy Tab tu, besar tak agaknya?". I can always answer, "Ala, kecik sikit dari iPad". #moodpegrak.

Enough with the cockiness, yes, it's fun there but one thing, jauh. So, I have to walk. T_T Balik lunyai tido awal bangun awal.

Looking forward to enjoy my weekend now. Cheero. :D

now playing : Sweet - Funny Funny