whatever you want

Oh shit, I love her body and her clothes in this. Oh please, could I be you? Grrrr.

and yeah, my love is like woah!

H.

dreams

Sometimes, I'm kinda a hopeless romantic kind of person.


I love to day-dream in the middle of the day, wanting something that is impossible. Something out of our control.


For the past few decades of my life, i'm always searching for something, something to feel my heart. An emptiness that needed to be filled.


I'm searching for love and affection.


According to thefreedictionary.com; 

Affection is a tender feeling toward another, fondness.

I longed for affection, like forever. Love is something subjective, something that is easy to find, to be in, but affection takes years to build and to be found, because men is usually associated with their ego's and everything.


Yes, we know you have ego and need to be a man, but we need affection too.


This is also mainly I loved to watched black and white movies, and their love life seems promising and real and pure. I dreamed of that.


I dreamed  of;


1. Found "the one" or in other words, my soulmate (and I don't really use this term because it is hard and possible to find your soulmate)
2. Just sitting and stare and gazing at each other and thankful that we have met the right person but seldomly at the right time
3. Spending the time in the day, just be with each other without saying a word eventhough our heart spokes to each other (more or less, macam bluetooth)
4. When we're old, we're everywhere selling kuih-muih, or travelling around Malaysia and just spend what's left in our life.
5. He will read our love story as I will have an Alzheimer (Insya-Allah tak ada, walaupun itu penyakit keturunan :p)
6. We will buy a house beside the sea and get out from all the chaos of the city.
7.  Dancing in the middle of the streets, walking around the beach, singing in the rain, 
8. Go to PARIS and re-live the black and white movies :)
9. Write a book about our love story just to ready when we are old enough and waiting for our time.
10. Just be ourselves and do what makes us happy.


+ 11. Died at the same time, because we couldn't live without the other one.


I know it's a bit cheesy and hopeless, but it's what I want.


And I hope, that I will find the love and affection that I'm searching for.


Is it possible? *Gary Barlow - Forever Love*


H.

awww.

Sometimes, I have a thing for beautiful women. 


KAK Shania, im in love! :) with you of course kak shania. ewah ewah.

This song says it all. :)

'Cause I'm keeping you

forever and for always

We will be together all of our day

Wanna wake up every

morning to your sweet face--always

H

V's Day

Everything is heating up, everyone is looking forward to it.

But I don't celebrate it. WHY?

It's not my culture and the one yang wujudkan ni bukan Islam pun. 

I don't anybody to be my Valentine. And I don't believe that we have to celebrate the "love" only on February 14. What about other 364 days? Not valuable? Beats me.

I don't to call anybody my Valentine sebab Valentine is a bit cheesy. Don't you think so?

But one thing about me, IF I think someone deserve to be my Valentine, everyday would be a Valentine day for him. Not on February 14. (awwwwww, poyo tak poyo tak?) :)

Let me change Valentine to "Love" day. 

Everyday is  a love day for me, would you agree on that? :)

p/s : I love my mummy so dearly. Hihihih :D

penghapusan dosa

Have you ever heard that if kita demam, it's like penghapusan dosa-dosa kecil?

Okay, maybe H banyak dosa and sebab tulah selalu sakit, but then kadang2 perubahan cuaca yang extensive pun menyumbang kepada peternakan sakit ni. Pendek cite, tahi penyakit jela eh.

And like seriously, every semester, sakit tu adalah perkara wajib. Bukan lemah or mengada2, tapi Tuhan nak bagi cash-cash ni, terima jela. Muhasabah diri sikit. Kenapa sakit, maybe ada terlepas cakap. Yes, im only human. And to all people, I apologize sebab kadang2 kita ni lalai dan terbawa2 dengan perasaan kecil kita ni. 

I don't mind people want to criticize or anything sebab, somehow someday, dorang pun akan sakit. Bukan nak mintak, but that's how the universe works, and tertumbuhnya quotes, "What goes around, comes around". 

In the past, ive probably done some things that im not proud of, but people change. Ive changed, you change. But does it for better or for worst?

Yes, ada kebaikan demam ni. Janganlah anggap dia satu musibah yang melanda yang tidak ada kebaikkannya. :)

But im feeling a lot better compared to before. Mainly, because of the medicine :)

Chalo gedega.

H.