thoughts

It's 3am and honestly, i couldn't sleep.


I'm not saying that no one understands me, which apparently, this one person really understands but what i'm trying to say here, everyone else doesn't.


I understand that life isn't as easy as it looks or death isn't as scary as it looks, but somehow the word "What If" always repeating at the back of my head. i know that our lives have been written even before we were born. Our destiny has their own mind and believe me, it has a lot challenges lies upon us. And the people around us, is not doing their job well.


But nevertheless, I am still thankful for everything and most importantly, I'm thankful I'm still breathing and even though it is so painful, i know that end of the day before I close my eyes, there's someone who accept and wants me just the way I am.


"You lose some, you win some" and that's all matters. 


:)

facts you might not know about me but try very hard to ignore but accidentally read it.

Sorry for a very long title.


Tonight, I'm a bit talkative and energetic. And it's not good for this eyes T_T


but let's review what are the facts that i'm going to tell you.


Fact 1
Youngest among 4 girls.
Nothing in this world could ever change the fact, that I have 3 sisters. And without them, I will never ever like mathematics. Thank you, sisters!


Fact 2
Loves Mathematics.
Im no maths genius, I just love maths. Maths is a challenge and when you can answer 1 hard question, you'll understand that you can bypass any obstacles and challenges lie ahead of you. 


Fact 3
Unstable Human Emotions
I cannot define what emotion i'm having each seconds of my life. But, its what I am, and 'if you don't accept and love yourself, no one else will'. Human emotions cannot control for some human. But I always stick to this one phrase, "Allah S.W.T. takkan uji umat-Nya dengan ujian yang tidak dapat ditahan mereka". Sesungguhnya kita hidup kerana-Nya, dan tanpa-Nya, we wouldn't be here at the first place.


Fact 4
Loves Music
Everyone has a different idea what a music is. Everyone is a musician. Why? Sebab, according to Wikipedia...(okay, ni semangat sangat). Anyway, because why, everyday, kita terdedah with many kind of music, do you know, the sound of your breathing is a kind of music? Cuba try tarik nafas and hembus nafas laju2, cam rapper tak? (Okay, itu mengarut) Back to main point here, my main attraction for what I search for my easy listening; anything that can make me happy; Why waste 1 seconds of sadness, when you can have another 59 seconds of happiness?


Fact 5
Poor Habit
Kena include jugak ke? Sometimes, yes. Admitting your weakness is a sign of strength. So, don't be sad if you can't cook (Haa, gasaklah kau bila kahwin laki kau suruh masak-Ingat ye wanita, kalau tidak mahu suami anda lari ke tangan perempuan lain, ringan2kan tulang dan belajar masak, kerana air tangan kamu itulah yang membuatkan suami bertambah sayang dan makin sayang sampaikan boleh mintak duit atau credit card tuk membeli beli di Jusco Member's Day, ok?) Lazy, yes, sesetengah manusia dikurniakan dengan kemalasan yang teramat, saya sekali BUT tengok keadaan. Tak elok tak unproductive everyday >.<


Fact 6
Loves to Eat
To boleh deny fact ni. Anything fattening and cheesy, I am definitely an active eater. Domino's Classified Chicken Double Decker is among the mouthwatering food I can never ever say No to. If satu hari I have a fight with anybody, eventhough it is not my fault, kalu beli Pizza ni haa, confirm I yang ngaku kalah, sebab makan punya pasal (yes, saya lemah cmtu hanya kerna makan :D)


Fact 7
Loves to Sing and Dance
Im no singer or dancer but I sing ikut sedap telinga (konon2 Astrud Gilberto ke) menari ikut perasaan sambil gelek2 (and berangan Amelina nyanyi lagu "Asyikkkk"), but whenever you encounter me doing this, it shows that maybe Im too stressed out and needed to loosen a little bit or probably im too happy and wanted to be all jumpy here and there. Hihi.


Fact 8
Drama Queen Normal
Entahlah, Drama Queen ini apa? Mungkin ada sesetengah pihak will say Im a drama queen but nah, "Words do not define who you are, but action does". Because why? The are kejillion trillion billion million thousands hundreds people in this world and you're trying to be someone that likable? or trying to fit in? But whyyyy? No Friends? Takpe, tak mati. Tak loser, loser tu apa? Only other people perception towards orang yang dia rasa threaten with jeh. But that probably be my opinion. Tak payah kejar glamour2 kan? Akhirat Tuhan tak bagi ganjaran pun dekat orang2 popular ni, kan? :)


Fact 9
Daydream
Berangan or daydream has always been my favourite hobby since forever. Huhuh. Orang cakap kan, kalau kuat berangan, dia dia dia tak semestinya Mat Jenin tapi mungkin boleh jadi berjaya. Okay tu tipu. Seronok tau berangan. Because reality doesnt do the justice. So, might as well, we have fun with the imagination rather than serabutkan kepala with the reality. :)


Fact 10
Chocolates
Anything that related to hazelnut choc or cheeze choc or just plan choc. :)


Okay, that just 10 useless facts and advice about me or maybe for you sikit2. :D


Song : Claire Keim - Ca Depend :)